Shades of Purple

I’m tired of being a people pleaser.

I sometimes go through this stupid phase where I think it’s my fault that I’m just being myself, but others get annoyed of it, and me noticing them getting annoyed, crawled back into my cave and shouted to myself, “Why can’t you just shut up you talkative fool!!”

Why must I care that what I say or do might hurt, bore or annoy others?

And when I decide not to do things that would annoy people, why must it be their business to bother why I somehow kept quiet and do things without disturbing or telling people? They say that I should’ve told so people won’t be having so many questions.

Why is it so hard to be right no matter what you do?

Maybe there is no right thing to do after all. They’re all perceptions. When I don’t judge or correct others, they said I did, which maybe true in my small unconscious ways. But why don’t they notice that they’re correcting and judging me everyday too. It’s impossible to be right in other people’s eyes.

One day I’ll stop caring about what people said.

Although come to think of it, i’ve done that before,

and when I did, they said I’m “cold hearted”.

Huh! People..